Thoughts thoughts thoughts.

It's been long since I last posted. I have a lot in my mind, but I don't know how to write it.

Firstly, I think I need a lot of prayer and discipline to guard my heart and my mind~
Recently at work, I no longer have the motivation to work but my motivation is to go work to see my manager, not only that, I wanted to catch the attention of my manager! That's so wrong:(
I always have the pleasure messaging him at night. Yesterday, when he didn't text me, I was a little dissapointed:( but of course I prayed, prayed that I can control my emotion and that I will continue to trust that the Lord will give me a guy that will take care and look after me for the rest of my life, and that now, is not the right time yet. I will have to continue to pray about this, so that my heart can be guarded and I will have more self-control.

Secondly, I don't know whether I am jealous, or I am just dissapointed. I told a secret to 2 of my colleague, expecting them to just keep quiet and like just emphatize with my ah! but then ley, they joked about it, talk it amongst themselves. Its so sad, when I just see 2 people going together, having lotsa of fun and I am not included inside. so okay~

Not gonna rant so much~ so gonna leave it as it is.